rain, rain go away.

good morning everyone.

it is six o'clock and pouring rain outside.

i am so sick of rain!

rain has always been my favorite weather but it won't stop!

it has been like this for months now.

rain rain rain rain.

i hate utah weather.

one day it'll be completely sunny and gorgeous outside and then the next it will be looking like disaster.

the forcast here is so unpredictable.

if it keeps raining like this we just might see a flood here (overexageration).

i do not want to drive to school in this crap.

sorry i keep banging on and on about this but aren't any of you ready for summer?

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picture from google images.

it is spring and that means blossoms are erupting.

my favorite perfumes at the moment. i am finding that i am drawn to flowery scents ( i already own marc jacob's daisy and vera wang's princess)

i have always loved dkny's "be delicious" perfumes but this one is my most adored. it is so prettily scented.

my other love is "sweet pea" from bath and body works. this one and "be delicious blossom" are actually quite similar. the difference? this one is about 30 bucks cheaper. haha

this one is astounding. it is
Limited Edition Rice Dry Oil Spray
Japanese Cherry Blossom

from bath and body works. it is incredible. when you spritz it on, your skin feels like silk. it is a beautiful find.

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all photos found on bath and body works website and google images.

i just bought.

i also got these shoes and ring at buckle. the closest thing to urban outfitters i can get without driving an hour to salt lake city.

the ring was $8 and the shoes were about $50.

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both photos were found on buckle's website.

it's a beautiful day for copies and tea bags.

so when i finally got to sleep last night (which was around one to two in the morning) i was awoken by my alarm clock which seemed like only five minutes later. i was late to school again. can i just say that i am so ready for college in a couple of months. and even more crazed about graduating highschool in less than a month. i know, i know. i am sure that i say this quite often but i can not help myself. highschool is shit and makes life hell.
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i went shopping at the mall on friday and got myself some new clothes. mainly because i am getting my pictures taken professionally not this friday but next. i am only getting them done because i am getting it taken for free. that is a big highlight of the month of april for me just let me say. i have never been photographed before and i am thinking that it is all very wicked.
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so i bought this flannel shirt from american eagle on friday:

now ae is the only store i will go to that is preppy. and i can only get things that do not have the ae brand name on it (minus the tag). they can have some cool stuff i must admit. every once in awhile. haha well i wore it to school today and everyone loved it.

i love when i get to something first and then everyone is jealous. prideful you might say but then again i am sure you feel the same way.

but i was the only person in my school that owned the shirt. not for long though unfortunately. a couple of girls asked me wear i got it. what could i say? you couldn't get that kind of shirt at hot topic.... maybe i don't know. they don't sell a whole lot of flannel at that store. anyways, i told them and they all want to go get it now. i told them that there were more colors and they were all, "oh no, i think i want the gray too."

i hate girls that have to be just like everyone else. get your own gosh damn shirt. i got it first and to want the exact color and everything as me means that you can't be yourself or original.

am i right or am i right?

but then again i may have asked for it. i did tell them where i got it.

someone duct tape my mouth please.

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i hope this week goes by fast.

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me mum is going to a protest on wednesday. against the president.

i live with the spawn of satan i believe.

i mean, i completely understand if you don't agree with the government and all, but to go to the capital of your state to complain in person? seriously, this is how we get world peace? not my cup of tea.

and speaking of tea, that is what the protest is about. half the country is reinacting the "boston tea party." and they say they don't want to pollute the ocean. actually, they are just mailing teabags to the white house.

me mum is even making posters. as if my family isn't enough of a freakshow already.

me mum won't stop banging on and on about how this will effect my life.

as if.

yeah sure it might, but it isn't today. i think i will just let me mum and the rest of the old time colonists have their fun.

i am just going to go draw or something.

if i see me mum on the telly i will scream.

and cry.

whatever comes first.

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i got the shirt from www.ae.com and the top picture from google images as per usual. haha

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keep dreaming and stay "patriotic". haha

sleepless at 11

i can't sleep.

it is only 11 pm but i got school tomorrow.

i can never sleep.

my mind races and ponders on too many things at night.

you know when you go the whole day distracted by the many things in life and then darkness falls.

you lie your head to rest but to no avail because your brain starts to go all haywire with the things that are happening in your life.

and you can't control it.

you can't settle your mind just for a few hours to calm down.

too much shit in your life to worry about.

it's been hiding in the dark corners of your room until you are ready to sleep.

then it jumps all over you so you are full of panic and anxiety.

why does it happen to you?

why does it happen to me?

am i the only one that feels this?

i hope not....

i am jack's smirking revenge.

today is sunday: the day of rest.

obviously me mum doesn't understand that concept and still makes me get up to go to church. i completely understand that it is easter and it is like horrid or something to not go to church on this particular day but still, i would rather sleep than go.

i am so going to hell.

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when i got to church i found that my purple hair definately was out of its welcoming state. people did not seem to approve of it. not that i care what anyone thinks though. i mean, that's why i got the hair color in the first place. but it was absolutely certain that i was out of my league according to everyone in my church. only one person complimented it while meanwhile i got disapproving stares from the older ladies and men.

smile and wave girl, smile and wave.

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when i got home me mum forced me to watch this excruciatingly boring half hour segment on the life of christ. and let me tell you, not only had i seen that video like fifty times, i also just happened to already know everything it was talking about. i mean come on, does me mum really believe that i don't already learn this stuff every bloody week when she makes me endure the lessons over and over again on sundays?

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something i do not understand with me mum is that she forces religion on me as if i am going to become a satan worshipper the second i move out in a couple of months. and not just with religion does she do this. no, she also tends to be really, abnormally strict. i mean, she has always had her stupid underage guidelines for me. but lately she is becoming over the top senial. seriously if i knew she wasn't me mum i would've thought that she just escaped from the crazy place. even my sis and poppa who doesn't even live with me notice it. then again maybe me poppa is just expressing how he has always felt about me mum before they divorced. she is going insane and trying to drag me down with her. i think she is the one who needs to be on medication. wait. she already is.

i think i am dwelling in what is most commonly called "hell on earth."

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but on a lighter topic, me best mate jake came to pick me up yesterday to take me up to logan, which is about an hour away from "home sweet home." i want to go to college up there where he and me other close boy mates live and go to school. and can i just say now how much i love these boys? they are me best mates and i don't know what i would do without them. but anyways, he showed me around the campus and we checked out some apartments i might want to rent out. i rather die than have roommates. they rarely clean up after themselves and living with a bunch of girls is just drama. i hate drama. but it always seems to come to me. sigh. so i want a studio apartment or something just to myself so i can do what i want with it and only have to clean up after myself. plus i know how to actually rinse the bathtub after i bathe myself. then we went and got some icecream that was heaven let me tell you. we did a bunch of other stuff around campus (including painting easter eggs at jake's place haha) then we headed back own south to hang out with our other friends.

we went bowling and i got last place.

i suck ass at that game.

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well, i think that is all for now. i hope you all keep daydreaming and have a very happy easter!

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i got the dreamy picture from google images. seriously, that device brings up the coolest photos. you just type in the dumbest word and all these crazy images pop up.

i tend to be easily entertained. haha

the world is wrong.

new, not improved.

as you can see, i got myself a new layout for my blog. hopefully i can get used to everything on the left now. haha. me mum and sister are down in salt lake city today to look for a prom dress. i was asked to prom too by a good friend of mine but we are not going to go. i hate dances. i can't dance. and they are fu**ing expensive. i would rather spend my money on something i could use in the future. not on a dress i will only wear once and on photos that i know i will look like hell in anyways. whatever. haha instead, the guy that asked me and i are going to go down to salt lake city ourselves and hang out for the day down there. much like something i would rather do than go to a dance that i know will be a disapointment. but anyways.

i finally finished my friend's commision she had for me. she wanted me to paint two faeries to hang up in her daughter's bedroom. i took quite awhile due to my demanding schoolwork. plus it was my first real commision and i was extremely nervous that she wouldn't like them. but she seemed to like them quite a lot and her daughter even named the faeries "anne" and "flowery". the daughter is five years old. haha i am so relieved that the liked them, plus my friend payed me fifty dollars for the two eight by eleven pieces so not bad in my book.

oh my, i have not eaten much since yesterday afternoon and it is now 1:15 PM here in dismal utah. guess what i had for breakfast? saltine crackers. yes, completely nourishing and filling... i was being sarcastic. haha i have nothing in the house to eat. i crave a frapaccino right now. i know that isn't exactly "healthy" either but it sure is filling.

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hey check out this song i am listening to right now. it is very pretty:

imogen heap by not now but soon

sorry i am rambling so much right now. i am so bored and want to get out of the house! the weather is finally warming up a bit and i want to experience it before it goes away!

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i think i found the picture from the drifter and the gypsy blog.

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keep daydreaming!

am i apart of you?

i found this very deep and well thought quote on http://newbornhippy.blogspot.com/

i love it.

"You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it."

i think it would be such an interesting thing to know that you were a meaningful and adored person in another's life. i hope i am to someone. someone out in the world. and i don't even mind not knwing who it is. i just lust for the fact that i am. somewhere.

ok i'm just going to be honest with you.

the most ten honest things about me are:

1. i am an artist. not just because i can draw or paint. but because i am creative and i think. i strive to be original and thrive on new experiences and ideas.

2. i am stubborn. very stubborn. i have never in my life gone for someone else's ideas or opinions just to fit in. i have my own thoughts so i don't need your help with defining them. being stubborn gets me teased a lot by my guy friends. ;)

3. i am a city girl. i do not enjoy the country very much. every-now-and-then i can go to the country-side and enjoy the fresh air. but i hate the smell of cows and other farm animals. not only that, but rarely anything happens in the farm lands. everything is so quiet. which brings me to number four.

4. i need noise in my life. i need action. i need adventure. i have to constantly be listening to music or i go crazy from the silence. something has to be going on around me or i get bored.

5. although people would never guess it from me, i am a romantic. i love fairytales, not disney fairytales, but real stories like Romeo and Juliet and A Midsummer Night's Dream. i love flowing dresses, lace, photography of women in dreamy settings, poetry, and real love and calming music.

6. i am fasinated by the female body. no, i am not interested in women in a love way. i am not a purvert. i just think we are beautiful creatures. women are such magical beings that deserve to be recognized so. i suppose that is why i tend to only draw women.

7. i want to go to italy one day and hope to live in seattle, washington after i graduate highschool in less then two months. i have always adored italy. i used to live in washington since i was born until i was five. then i moved to dull and unchanging utah for my poppa's work purposes. but i still visit it often and love it so much.

8. in truth, i had severe depression since i was very small until i reached the age of seventeen. i had a lot of family problems that caused me to have a very sad childhood. most people wish they could go back, i rather die.

9. i believe in these two sayings more than any others:

regrets are mistakes you don't learn from

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forgiveness means you've given up the hope that the past will be different

i don't know who said those because i have used them in my life for years and have forgotten the quoters.

10. it has taken my whole life, but i am finally appreciating life and accept myself for who i truely am inside.

november me.

so i took a quiz and found out a little bit about myself, according to my birthday month. i found the quiz on facebook so you can find it there. here are the results:

"Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keeps secrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable."

i must say i was very impressed by my outcome because this is exactly like me. :)

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photo found on google images.

tagged!

picture found on http://thedrifterandthegypsy.blogspot.com/

1. Respond and rework: Answer the questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own invention, add one more question of your own.

2. Tag other un-tagged people.


What's your current obsession?piano music and fairytales

What are you wearing today?sweat pants and a baggy T

What are you looking forward to?i can not wait to move out

What would you like to learn to do?i wish i could play the guitar or piano. and i would like to learn to make my own paper for my art.

What did you have for dinner?i didn't eat yesterday.

What was the last thing you bought?some art supplies i believe from my art teacher.

What are you listening to right now?the drifter and the gypsy's blog piano music.

What is your favorite weather?when it's summer and warm and it starts to rain really quietly.

What is on your bedside table?picture after picture stacked up, some books, and art supplies.

What's your style?i don't really have a certain style. my style is alexandra. i wear what i want.

Which actor/actress do you think is similar to you?well i have been told i look like certain celebs but i think the one actress that is really similar to me is kristen stewart. we don't look alike but our personalities are really similar. all the characters she has played in movies are a lot like me.

What is your most challenging goal right now?i am striving to get my ap art portfolio together.

If you could go back in time to meet anyone in history, who would you meet?cleopatra, anne frank, or shakespeare

What is a fashion style you can't stand?hollister, aeropostale, when girls poof their hair up to the sky, when guys let their pants hang to their ankles, big long chain necklaces that gangsters wear, and yeah.

Favorite vacation spot?seattle or cali

Name the things you cannot live without:my art, my eyes, my hands, my thoughts, my hearing, mystery, romance, fairytales, wonder.

What would you like to get rid of?highschool and it's unnecissary drama and rudeness.

If you could go anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?italy and seattle

What language do you want to learn?french and italian. they are so romantic.

What countries have you visited?the usa and canada.

What are some of the things you like about where you live?.... my friends are nearby.. that's about it.

What's you favorite quality about yourself?um.... i like that i actually think about things. things that no one else really ponders about. i like that i can get myself out of this world and i can create my own. a place where i can really be myself. that world mostly transforms itself into my art.

What is your favorite quote/saying? regrets are mistakes we don't learn from

Say one random fact about yourself:i love scaring people. :)

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and i would like to tag Morning Glory Box. :) http://morningglorybox.blogspot.com/

just musing.

here are my latest interests. i found all of the randomly on google images. i think a few of them are from deviantart but i still discovered them on google. i had nothing to do last night so i just searched for photos that i liked. so here are some of them. i got a bunch more too. but enjoy these!