i scream for you.

i love this artist/ photographer. her name is lara and i adore looking at her work. it has such emotion and great angles. everyone needs to look at her page on deviantart.com :

http://larafairie.deviantart.com/

natural warrior.

this mystical group of photos are by the talented julia davis. she has a beautiful gallery on deviantart.com . i found her work this morning and i adore it all. she has a very good sense of color and what would look good. she is very creative and i feel so happy looking through all her photos.

you know, deviantart has so many talented artists on it, i just get so jealous. :)

i wish i was good enough to make my own on there and show my art. but if you placed my art next to all the amazing and beautiful artists that are on there, i would probably get laughed at. :)

ah well, i can speak my mind on here so i am ok.

oh and by the way, here is the exact link to julia's website on deviantart. please check it out. it won't be a let down!

http://juliadavis.deviantart.com/

i feel like i could jump and fly.

i am so proud of myself.

in my ap art class i went to go show my teacher my new art and journal pages that i had been working on over xmas break. she told me that i was such an inspiration and she wanted to make copies of everything to show art classes in the years to come.

not only that, but she gave me a lot of extra credit. after she had entered in the scores, she told me that my grade was the highest anyone has ever scored in any of her art classes she has ever taught. she has been teaching for a long time.

i am so happy! by the way, my grade was 124.6 percent. i could not be happier...

actually, if i had that certain someone i love holding me right now, it would be perfect. :)

i can conquer.

school starts again today after a long 16 day break! now i know that a lot of people got longer than that (my friend sam got til the beginning of december til the 25th of january!) but 16 days is too long for me to be away from the world and friends. that whole two and a half weeks i only saw one friend. i was so depressed. all i had to do was draw draw draw and go onto facebook.

sigh.

but now that school starts up again today in about oh, an hour and a half, i am much more happy and feel more alive. i can't wait to see my friends again and see how they are doing.

i have done so much art over the past couple of weeks during the break. i really hope my ap art teacher likes all of it. i have been trying some new experiments with colors and pictures. it has been a lot of fun. even if all of the pieces i have done recently aren't liked by my teacher and other students, i am still proud of myself for going outside my box. as jennifer anniston once said:

"everything we want in the world is just outside our comfort zones."

how true is that? when we stay in the safe grounded area we think nothing can hurt us. but then we realize that we can't have anything we truely desire because we are afraid of change.

i am so glad that i overcame that problem. i feel like i have so much to offer the world, i just have to be brave enough to show it and let it out and free.

three evils.

these pieces of art i did recently were inspired by the "fight against aids" campaign starring various celebrities. i chose to draw avril lavigne because her photos were amazing and beautiful. my scanner really isn't good and so you can't see the full effect of them all. but you get the jist of it. i fully support this campaign and believe they can make a difference in fighting against aids. already they have made over a few million dollars.

it's like i'm floating in the ocean.

i am so excited for this new year. i feel fully alive and motivated. i can't wait for it to get going. i feel weightless and beautiful like nothing can stop me. and nothing will. i am too happy about where i am that i know that trying to bring me down will only make me stronger. being in love only helps the situation too. ;)

let it flow

these beautiful pieces of art are done by chris ortega. i found all of his work on epilogue.com but i am sure you can find them on other websites too. i love the colors and passion he uses. i also like how each picture has a story behind it or a point.

oh i am sorry, excuse me

oh excuse me, i was just thinking. i tend to do that a lot.

little life scenarios

these awesome cartoons are done by my silly friend theo. that damn asian! lol i love him.

i want you to hold me

i wish someone could hold me right now. i feel so lonely at the moment. my arms feel empty. half the time i just lay on my bed wondering whos arms i really belong in.

on this side of town it touches everything

i used to feel this way awhile back when i had depression and such. i love this song.

the beginning of "when it rains" by paramore:



and when it rains
on this side of town it touches
everything
just say it again and mean it
we don't miss a thing
you made yourself a bed at the bottom
of the blackest hole(Blackest hole)
and convinced yourself that it's not the reason
you don't see the sun anymore

the only reason...

i am at the point where i don't know the answer to anything.

before, i was known among my family and friends for always having something to say or having an answer to everything whether it was right or not.

but lately, the past couple days, i hardly have anything to say, because i am thinking i don't know the answer.

and i think so hard what i should do or what would be the right thing to say.

and i fail.

i can't think straight anymore.

what is wrong with me?

all i feel like doing is lying in my bed.

but then i realize that i would do nothing but think about the things that are bothering me if i do.

so i am forcing myself to get out tonight.

i am going to go hang out with my friends.

then maybe i won't think so much and i can do what i do best:

let go.