if nagging was an olympic sport, me mum would win a gold medal.

mum is driving me crazy.

no wonder i moved out.

i haven't even been here an hour and she is already nagging me.

shut the fuck up and let me do what i want.

i am only checking on some fav blogs my hell.

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photos: alexander wang designs.

slowly but surely i am making an entrance.

wow, it is so frustrating and sad that i haven't been able to post every day.

i have been living with my poppa the past week and a half.

surprisingly it has been going pretty well.

i get my own room for the first time in my life.

i am finally seeing all the movies i have wanted to see that me mum would never allow me to view.

i can wear whatever the hell i want.

i can do whatever i want too.

well, to an extent obviously.

the only let down:

i am cut off from the world.

i do not have a cell phone so i can not call my friends and i do not own a laptop to blog on.

out of all the let downs, i hate not being able to post the most.

it is like my diary or something.

an online art journal.

until i can get a portable computer of my own, i will only be able to get on here every week or so.

but i will try to as much as possible.

it was a relief to get on here though, let me tell you.i have had nothing around me but a telly and a cat by the name of hannah.

sigh.

pure vanity.

i hate not breathing.

hello,
um, i have some bad news.
i will be gone for awhile.
i am not sure how long exactly.
i am going to live with my father for a little bit.
me mum is not well and my family believes it will be better if i left for some time.
it is a terribly long story.
my father does not have a computer but is hoping to get one soon.
i am nervous everyone.
if you have read my earlier posts some time ago, you would remember that me and my father don't really get along.
plus his girlfriend will be there.
please pray to god or however you hope for good things that i can do this.
i believe in myself but can not help but be a little frightened.
i will be able to visit me mum's every now and then to get on the computer, but i am not sure how much.
i will update when i can.
but thank you all so much.
i adore all you lovely people.
wish me luck.

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i'll watch you falling from me.

when you hit the ground,

maybe you'll see
the only way to fall is down

i'll be up in the stars but

i'll be anywhere you are

just say you need me and

i'll come down.

we'll never know,

we'll never, ever know

if you just let it go.

if it comes undone,

then tie up your loose ends.

when the colors run,

then all of the shapes blend.

below the innocent surface is quite the most heavenly sin.

this is incredible.

decorative chocolate covered oreos.

pure genius.

buy them here:

http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=25113559

i'll come to life for you as long as you agree to play.

i have to admit,

even though i have been afraid of dolls my whole life,

i am addicted to these ones.

i don't know why,

but they fasinate me.

i found them on etsy.

http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=5666013

i wish i looked like a fairy queen when i bathed in my tub.

more sofia and mauro.

i am really loving these bathtub photos lately.

five in the morning and i slowly chance a look at the sky only to find that there is still so much to hide.

big surprise!

i can't sleep again.

it is nearly five in the morning.

the sun is going to come up soon.

i can already hear birds outside.

i don't get this, i don't even drink caffeine which is weird because all my friends and family do.

and i don't take naps during the day.

so why the hell am i never sleeping?

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this next part might be a little bit of a spoiler but read on if you wish.

i saw the new transformers movie last night.

what a freaking waste of money and time.

it was really horrible.

i know nearly everyone is absolutely loving it.

but i hated it with a passion.

i never laughed when it was meant to be intentional.

i actually laughed when it was meant to be serious.

in fact, i laughed hysterically.

i kind of felt bad for the people around me.

the acting was terrible.

megan fox was a slut, along with that new girl that had that scorpion tail thing coming out of her ass.

shia labeouf was annoying at times.

the special effects weren't nearly as good as the first one.

the humping dogs really got on my nerves, along with those tiny twin cars.

plus, it was really unrealistic.

i mean, i know it was just a movie.

but still, hollywood has to have some boundries as to what can really happen.

there is just know possible way that a huge sun-destroyer could survive inside the pyramid of giza for millions of years and no one even knowing about it.

and the story did not make much sense either.

i left the movie theater with more questions than i had going in.

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my friends want to hang out today.

i am rather tempted to just stay home though.

i want to work on some art and i will probably need a nap.

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i hope the rest of you are sleeping alright.