Saturday, April 25, 2009

it's color coded correctly.

good morning ladies and gentler ones. it is hailing outside my window.
i woke up at six in the morning to get ready for a service project today.
in one of my college classes we have to get into a group and come up with an eight hour service project. it took my group and i forever to come up with a project. we finally settled (against my ideas) to go to an elementary school to weed, pick up trash, and plant flowers and trees.
now i am all for making the environment look beautiful but this was ridiculous.
i mean, my group got this assignment over a month ago. i was giving all these ideas but everyone always seemed to have a problem with them. i was the only one giving ideas. the only imput my group put in was saying that my ideas wouldn't work.
can i just let you in on a little known fact?
everyone has a color personality. i learned about it in my class (communications which is highly interesting).
the four colors are:
1. red
(motive: POWER)—these are the power wielders. power: the ability to move from point A to point B and get things done, is what motivates and drives these people. they bring great gifts of vision and leadership and generally are responsible, decisive, proactive and assertive.
2. blue

(motive: INTIMACY)—these are the do-gooders. intimacy: connecting, creating quality relationships and having purpose, is what motivates and drives these people. they bring great gifts of quality and service and are generally loyal, sincere, and thoughtful.

3. white
(motive: PEACE)—these are the peacekeepers. peace: the ability to stay calm and balanced even in the midst of conflict, is what motivates and drives these people. they bring great gifts of clarity and tolerance and are generally kind, adaptable, and good-listeners.

4. yellow
(motive: FUN)—these are the fun lovers. fun: the joy of living life “in the moment”, is what motivates and drives these people. they bring great gifts of enthusiasm and optimism and are generally charismatic, spontaneous, and sociable.

when you take the test to figure out what you are, you can sometimes be a combination of two or three. sometimes the results change with mood. when i take the test i am usually a red followed very closely with blue. i only had a couple points on white and yellow even though i do share a small piece of their qualities.
it is a very interesting topic and once you learn about it you start to notice it in the people around you. like your mum could be a white while your father seems more of a red. and speaking of couples, some color people don't work well with others. like a red and a yellow would clash terribly because a red wants to accomplish something while the yellow just wants to play.
this was researched for a long time by phsycologists and scientists. they have made books about the topic and have gained a much bigger understanding of people and how/why they think and act.
but anyways, sorry that was a long description. i brought it up because i am a red as i stated before. however, the others in my group are not. i have four other people in my group, two boys and two girls. one boy is a white and the other three are yellows. can you see the problem here? a red (me) wants to get things done, a white wants everyone to just get along so they go along with anything, and yellows never shut up. they talk and talk and talk. so when we have a lone red who wants to get this shitty project over with, the yellows want to socialize day and night and the white barely speaks because he doesn't want to start drama. it is quite frustrating. so now we are doing this service last minute because no one listens to me.
*rolls eyes dramatically*
i told everyone that it was going to rain and snow this weekend but
"nooo alexandra, we need to get this over with. we need to plant those flowers and trees..."
in the hail? you want to plant flowers and trees in this weather? are you all high?
... they called ten minutes before i was leaving to go help to say that the weather is too bad to do the project.
seriously, if people just listened to me the first time i wouldn't have had to wake up early on a saturday for absolutely no damned reason.
so now i am absolutley exahusted because i was up half the night with T and woke up at the crack of dawn for nothing. but you all know this about me:
i can't sleep worth shit.
so now it is eight in the morning and i am writing this.
last night was pretty good though i suppose. i went with T to his best friend's house to watch one of my favorite movies: waking ned devine. it is an irish movie about a town full of mostly old people that are trying to get nearly seven million dollars from a dead man who won the lottery....
it is good, believe me. :)
well keep daydreaming and sorry i seemed so angry. you probably would be too though. haha
i got the picture from the moldy doily blog. her friend designed the clothes.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

if i had a tumor, i'd call it marla.

one of most beloved movies of all time:
fight club.
and my favorite character?
marla singer.
she is sultry and trampy and dirty.
very dirty.
she breathes smoke and has never fucked like this since grade school.
although the movie was made nearly ten years ago, i still love to party like it's 1999.
you should join me. :)

all photos found on google images.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009


i got this sweet email from a man about my profile. it made me smile. i hope he isn't the only one to see i am very mature for my age. haha

"Hi I read your "about me", you gonna do great in life. You sound like you're pretty mature..And the guy thing youll figure it out and have them wraped around your finger!!!!!!!!!!!! Been their done that.. hit me up sometime.. LOL Chas"


i was told that i looked very pretty today by someone highly unexpected.
... it made my day.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

diary of a sleepless mind.

dear diary,
i don't know if it's tomorrow already,
or are we still in yesterday?
because i still can't sleep.
i have put in older posts that i have trouble sleeping.
well last night wasn't any better.
i ended up sluffing school today and going over to my friend T's house.
he works all night about an hour away from where we both live and he was exhausted too.
we ended up sleeping all day, well until two in the afternoon.
he was so nice about it too because i wasn't just tired.
i have been having family problems and he sat and listened to me vent for the longest time.
then he dragged his mattress out from his bedroom in front of the telly and we just both feel asleep.
i was able to get up in time to make it home before me mum wondered where i was.
she has no idea how much i skip class.
i mean, i don't really that much.
but today was the first time i sluffed the whole day.
i missed both my art classes.
but i could not take going.
i would've have broke.
i felt like T was the only person i could go to and i was right.
he made me feel so much better.
haha i can still smell his cologne on my shirt. :)
isn't it nice to know that someone really cares about you sometimes?
it doesn't happen often.
to me at least.
but when it does, i feel so alive and loved.
i just wish he didn't have to go back to work that workaholic.
the picture and title was also from chipli.

chipil the thrill.

i came across this hauntingly wonderful photographer today.
she is the perfect example of enigma and lustly charm.
i love this kind of photography because of its dark and lovely aspects.
her name is jackeline moller.
enjoy. :)

here is the photographer herself.
love, love, love the hair. it is my color! :)

you really need to check out her spot on deviant art because these have the most beautiful titles.

i love her glasses.
these next two are my favorites. the titles are:
"i died here yesterday."

i totally own this shirt. :)
keep daydreaming!

Sunday, April 19, 2009


i am happy at the moment. :)
i took this pic of me months ago. before i cut my hair. i am wearing my paramore T. you can even see a really old piece of my artwork in the background from many years ago. :)
i hope everyone's day is going beautifully!
love always,

here comes the sun.

you know that big, huge, ball of fire that heats the air and makes life warmer? yeah well, it is finally poking out from behind the clouds to shine forth some spring.
i went to salt lake city yesterday and stopped by urban outfitters. i was there for about two hours. seriously, i don't think i have ever found anything there that i didn't like.
i found an apartment! i am probably going to move in a couple of months after i graduate. where i am moving is not exactly where i want to live for the rest of my life but it has some good points.
1. i get it all to myself.
2. it has a kitchen, a bathroom, a bedroom, and a loft.
3. it has heating and air conditioning.
4. i get to decorate it how i want.
5. i get it really cheap because the land lady is my older sister's aunt-in-law.
6. it is pretty much brand new.
it is a wonderful place but i would really like to move to cali or seattle. my plan is to live in this new apartment for about a year so i can save up money and then move to where i really want to live.
i gotta go shopping for some things to make this place my own!
picture came from the drifter and the gypsy blog i believe. i found it a couple weeks ago so i can't exactly remember! i am sorry!
keep day dreaming.