Friday, January 16, 2009

bare beauty.

these amazingly beautiful digital artworks of young men are by the very talented del melchionda. i discovered him on

his perception is very liken unto real young men. they are mezmorizing and gorgeous.

.... if only they were real. :)

here is the link for melchionda:

well tonight i am going to watch the original "night of the living dead". the black and white version. it was one of the first scary movies ever made. the first of its kind. it is one of my favorites.
and then tomorrow i am going up to the college near where i live and participating in a drawing session. i am excited because it is the first time i will be drawing not only in a college class but it is a nude drawing class. i am not like saying that i enjoy looking at nakedness or whatever, but i really think i need to practice with the still life of the human body.
well i better go for today. i am going to freak my friends out with some scary movies! :)
peace out and keep dreaming.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

the 18 year resolution.

okay, so it has been 2009 for nearly a month. i have finally set my new year's resolution:
no more secrets
my whole life i have held in what was going on in my world and with my family. i wouldn't tell anybody and it forced me to be put in the hospital for two weeks at a time sometimes.
now i am not saying that i am just going to tell anyone anything. i am saying that if i am getting depressed, i can tell someone i trust. talking about your problems is a hard thing to do for most people i think, but it is so worth it. you feel such peace inside. the problem is still there, but now you don't have to do it alone.
this whole year until november i will be eighteen. it is such an awesome feeling being able to make some decisions on my own. i wish that i could be moved out right now though. i can't wait to decorate my own place. you know, when you live at home, it is home. your mother decorates it and tries to make it as comfortable as possible. that is, at least, for most families. me mum does that too. but seriously, when i move out, my home will look nothing like my house right now. i love me mum but our styles are the complete opposite.
well i better get to school. it's funny, i nearly always write my posts before i go to school, when i am not even awake.
the two links for the photos up top are:
have a great day and keep dreaming.
rock on.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009


so this is the picture that my computer tech. teacher was talking about.
i mentioned it in my last post.
i had to go to school and didn't have time to upload it.
am i wrong though?
is this so inappropriate that the world did not deserve to see it?
i don't think so.
but what to i know?
apparently nothing.

the more i try, the more i sink.

i have never been so offended in my life.

in my computer tech class, my teacher (mrs. olds) made us all do powerpoints about ourselves, calling it "all about me". at first, it was the most entertaining thing we had ever done in her classroom.

i asked if it was okay to put some of my art on mine that i had downloaded on my school account. she said whatever and other stupid crap i don't even care to remember about how it should be appropriate.

so, i uploaded one of the pictures on the first slide. as soon as i did, my screen turned black. i couln't see what i was doing. i looked over at mrs. olds and she wasn't looking at me. i first thought that i had just pushed something and i did it myself because a second later, it came back on to normal.

so i kept working and a moment later, my screen went black again. now i knew then that it wasn't me, all i was doing was typing words for heaven's sake.

now mrs. olds has this damn device on her computer that i am sure every computer teacher has: it is this thing that allows her to see everyone's screens on her computer, so she can "make sure" we don't go to "inappropriate" or write something "bad" in her eyes. (sorry for all the quotations.)

when she had blackened my screen the second time, i still didn't know what i had done wrong. she then said to the class,

" i don't want anybody putting inappropriate pictures on your powerpoint"

then she looked at me and said,

"even if it is your own art."

i was like "excuse me?"

my whole row asked if she was talking about me and i nodded, my blood starting to boil. they looked at the drawing she was talking about and they all agreed that there was nothing wrong with it.

none-the-less, mrs. olds made me delete all my drawings i had uploaded even though she had only seen the one. she said that if one of my pieces was inappropriate in her eyes, they must all be bad. she said,

"it's one thing to do drawings in an art class, but it's wrong to show the whole world what you have done. your stuff is not appropriate in my class. no one should see it."

.... i was holding in so much at that point. i mean, i can accept critisizm easily, i really don't mind it. but she, i thought, was totally out of line. what kind of sh** is that anyways?

so instead of putting my own art up, i found an artist that was similar to my style and i put one of his sketches on my slideshow. i was going to tell the class that his work was a lot like mine so they all could get an idea of how i draw.

so i printed my finshed powerpoint like the rest of the class. mrs. olds had everyone turn in their slides to the turn-in box, that is, except me. when i printed mine, she had me bring it to her directly. she looked it over and the first thing she said as she refered to the sketch i had put on there by that other artist was,

"did you draw this? i don't want it on there if you drew it."

finally i couldn't hold in much what i was wanting to say. i sort of snapped at her in a loud voice saying,

"no i did not draw it. someone else did. you wouldn't let me put my own stuff up remember?"

she replied,

"i can't tell if she is inappropriate because the picture is too small."

i snapped again,

"there is nothing wrong with that picture. the woman is wearing a turtleneck thing for crying out loud. the only skin you can basically see is her face!"

mrs. olds then told me that she would be watching me and what i do with my powerpoint. i wanted to cry i was so mad. i didn't do anything wrong. i didn't. the picture she amde me delete is my friend's favorite piece. there is nothing wrong with it.
i am so happy i only have tomorrow left in that class and then the new semester will be here.

i just, no one has ever looked at my art before and said no one should see that. i am known at my school for the art i do. it's what people know me by. they don't remember my name half the time but they always remember the drawings i create.

it just isn't fair.
i will upload the picture i tried to put on my slideshow later. i have to go to school now. wait, you know actually i already uploaded that picture on here forever ago. i will put it on here again so you don't have to search through my posts to find it. but it'll have to wait til after school.
the picture at the top was found here:
anyways, have a great day and continue to daydream.

Monday, January 12, 2009

you are haunting me.

it is quite alarming what some people can randomly find and capture in a photo so it creeps the hell out of us wondering where in the world these places are and what the artist was doing there in the first place. again i came across this photographer on
here is the link:
there is more than haunting photos, some are firey and bright too. check this twenty-two year old woman's photography out.

it's a cosmic fantasy.

so here is the work of a dark angel, mysterious and thoughtful. she is a sixteen year old young woman from the large continent australia. i love how she creates such beautiful muses and photos that make you wonder what the characters in her pieces are thinking.
you can view her profile on deviantart with this link:
seriously, i have become fixed upon deviantart photographers. there are so many artists i have fallen for.

candy clouds and sunny wishes.

winter has been so long this year and it is still only halfway through.
here in utah we can get really bad winter weather, at least in the north where i live.
i usually love the cold, but i am desperately wanting the sun to shine through the thick black clouds and drown me in it.
i want to go to the local amusement park that is just twenty to thirty minutes from where i am sitting now.
i want to go on a rollarcoaster, go swimming, and eat cotton candy which i don't like that much anyways but that's how much i am longing for summer.
i want a summer love, kisses in the warm rain, sneaking off to places one shouldn't wander late at night, fireworks, sunburns, laughter, shorts and tanktops, cold smoothies and icecream, the ocean, huge white clouds under a bright blue sky, dinner on the patio, the drive-in, fairs, local band concerts, visiting cemetaries late at night, scary movie watching, and prank pulling.
i want the warmth to engulf my body and trap me in it.
i want summer to come.
here is the link to the photo:
the photography is a simply beautiful thing to look at from this 16 year old girl. please check her out.
i have to go to school now so peace out and continue to daydream!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

eye candy for the girl.. or man. :)

now i am not the kind of girl who bases her crushes on a man's looks, but that certainly does not mean i can't appreciate a good looking model when i see one.
when i was just typing in random stuff on google images, i ran across this website where i found most of these male gods.
how freaking hard they must have to work out everyday to look like that, not to mention diets and touch ups. but none-the-less, they are quite a site to gaze upon.
wouldn't you agree?
here is the website i found most of them on:
enjoy. ;)

my new muse and lover.

i have done it.

i have fallen in love with a magazine. not just any magazine, but a magazine called frankie.

i discovered this creation at a barnes and noble near where i live. i have become entirely fixed upon it.


the magazine's website describes itself with these words:

"frankie magazine is a national bi-monthly based in Australia, aimed at women (and men) looking for a magazine that’s as smart, funny, sarcastic, friendly, cute, rude, arty, curious and caring as they are. "


they focus on fashion, art, music, crafts, and life. most magazines interview celebrities and let you know about the latest clothing from marc jacobs and prada. but frankie demands the presence of newcomers from mainly australia and abroad whether they are artists, musicians, or other hobbies not found elsewhere. they let you know not what the "in" things are, but what is different and unique and what will make you stand out.

i completely lust upon the art and street fashion they show and admire their completely remarkable way of putting things.

check them out on their website:

or buy the magazine at your local barnes and noble.