you taste like strawberry weed.

sometimes i wonder that if birds can fly anywhere, why do they always choose to land on powerlines?

if i were a bird, i would fly the whole world over, exploring everything.

it is the weekend and i have nothing to do.

i thought about drawing or writing but i cannot bring myself to do it.

my friend chelsey has moved away to wyoming.

that state is the most boring, lifeless place in the country, besides idaho.

there is nothing there but brush.

i suppose yellowstone is worth it, but that is only a small part up in the corner of the state.

but i will miss her.

we had some good times.

we've known each other since third grade.

quite a long time.

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listening to strawberry weed by caesars, someday by the strokes, come on closer by jem, keep your head by the ting tings, and dirty laundry by bittersweet.

untitled.

i just need to cry. let the tears fall and then i die.

my friend chelsey came over and took some pictures of me.

then i edited them on my computer.

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how pitiful is this picture:

getting grounded and spending the whole day playing a video game because you aren't aloud to do anything else.

being grounded at eighteen is depressing. sigh.

and not only that, but i don't even play video games.

just goes to tell you how desperate i was to find something that would keep me occupied til the day was done.

and let me tell you, the day went by so fast when i was killing people with a controller.

is this what most boys and some girls live like?

playing video games like halo, wowc, ect. until their whole lives are gone and flashing before their eyes?

this is the climax of their lives where they can make something of themselves, and they are all off missing it because of a fucking video game.

my generation is falling prey to the digital world.

people, get a life.

either got it, or you don't.

been painting today.

just experimenting with different mediums.

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i applied for a bunch of jobs yesterday and hopefully i will get one.

it is funny but i kind of want to work at a restaurant.

out of all the places i applied, the restaurants seemed the most fun.

i don't know though.

we will see.

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i hate self-centered people.

they irritate me to no end.

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having chelsey over for the night then going to aaron's to watch a scary movie.

i think i might make her watch waking ned devine later.

great movie.

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picture: me

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keep daydreaming. :)

waterfall canyon.

here are some pictures from saturday.

my hell we were all so tired by the end of it, as you can see.

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aaron is on the left and jacob is on the right. yeah he is the one that nearly broke my knee. :)

this was after the hike, dinner, and swimming. we were so freaking exhausted.

me and one of my best pals, chelsey.

chelsey and i again.

chelsey, perlita, merissa, and i on the hike.

perlita, theo, me playing a game with everyone. i look like hell.

i fell asleep on aaron's basement floor because i was so tired.

haha we had just watched "the ring." then jake was like, "look, alex looks like samara."

derick sleeping, obviously. that is really all he does: sleep all day, play video games all night with people around the world.

perlita, me, and chelsey after swimming.

me and chelsey.

jake, perlita, theo, aaron, and derick.

hiking back down the mountain.

my favorite asians ever. :)

me and my best friend jake.

my house is down there somewhere.

as the water fell before us.

oh dear, it has a been a wild weekend so far.

yesterday i went with my friends on a long and difficult hike into the unitah mountains near where i live.

it took us around three hours to figure our way to the waterfall which was our destination.

it was so tiring because i was the only one out of my seven friends who was not in shape.

they all pretty much wanted to run up the mountain while i was huffing and puffing to keep up.

but i give myself credit because i did it.

after the hike we all went swimming at a local pool to cool ourselves down while soaking it up in a hot tub to keep our muscles relaxed.

when we had relaxed for a bit we decided to play "keep away" with a football one of the guys had brought.

it was the four guys against the four girls.

one of my best friends jake was getting really competitive and pretty much attacked me when i had the football.

he wrapped his legs around mine and flipped me upside down in the water in order to get the ball from me.

and let me tell you, it worked.

he got the ball and left me with a sprained knee.

haha he had no idea he had hurt me or i know he would have helped me.

now i hate asking people for help so i just pretended i wasn't hurt.

i hung out with my friends for eight more hours trying not to limp much.

it was midnight when i could not take it anymore so i went home.

i slept in until 2:30 in the afternoon today because i was so tired and aching.

but, despite the hurtful workouts i endured all day yesterday, i had so much fun. haha

i really did.

me and my friend chelsey took most of our clothes off and dunked ourselves in the waterfall which felt like ten degrees.

we were laughing so hard and all the guys and other two girls were taking so many pictures and laughing at us.

well, that is really all i have energy for at the moment. haha

have a great day. :)