'til it happens to you.

this is a song by corinne bailey rae. it is exactly how i have been feeling lately. it is called "'til it happens to you"

I know what I said, was heat of the moment.

There's a little truth in between the words we spoke and,

it's a little late now to fix a heart that's broken.

Please don't ask me where I'm going.

Cause I don't know.

No I don't know, anymore.

It used to feel like heaven,

It used to feel like May.

I used to hear those violins playing heart strings like a symphony,

Now they've gone away.

Nobody wants to face the truth, but you won't believe what love can do.

Till it happens to you.

Till it happens to you.

Went to, the old flat, guess I was trying to turn the clock back, but how comes

That nothing feels the same now when I'm with you?

We used to stay up all night, in the kitchen, when our love was new.

Ooooh love,

Am I a fool to believe in you?

'Cause I don't know, no I don't know anymore.

It used to feel like heaven, it used to feel like May.

I used to hear those violins playing heart strings like a symphony, now they're gone away.

Nobody wants to know the truth until their hearts broken.

Don't you dare tell them what you think to do,till they get over.

You can only learn these things from experience

When you get older.

I just wish that someone would've told me.

Mmm hmm mmmm.

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i was contacted by my favorite cousin yesterday on facebook. i have not spoken to him in years and haven't seen him since i was younger. he is around thirty years old and lives in boston. he spends his days partying and living it up driving down the streets with the top down on his way to cafes. i miss him and want to visit. he told me that he has a spare bedroom with my name written all over it.

shawn, as soon as i get the money, i am coming.

i want to get out of this shit hole so terribly bad. it sucks ass. the girls here are nothing but drama and can't have a conversation worth while to save their lives and the boys are just that: boys. they are so immature and all act as if we are still in gradeschool.

i want freedom.

i want life.