five in the morning and i slowly chance a look at the sky only to find that there is still so much to hide.

big surprise!

i can't sleep again.

it is nearly five in the morning.

the sun is going to come up soon.

i can already hear birds outside.

i don't get this, i don't even drink caffeine which is weird because all my friends and family do.

and i don't take naps during the day.

so why the hell am i never sleeping?

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this next part might be a little bit of a spoiler but read on if you wish.

i saw the new transformers movie last night.

what a freaking waste of money and time.

it was really horrible.

i know nearly everyone is absolutely loving it.

but i hated it with a passion.

i never laughed when it was meant to be intentional.

i actually laughed when it was meant to be serious.

in fact, i laughed hysterically.

i kind of felt bad for the people around me.

the acting was terrible.

megan fox was a slut, along with that new girl that had that scorpion tail thing coming out of her ass.

shia labeouf was annoying at times.

the special effects weren't nearly as good as the first one.

the humping dogs really got on my nerves, along with those tiny twin cars.

plus, it was really unrealistic.

i mean, i know it was just a movie.

but still, hollywood has to have some boundries as to what can really happen.

there is just know possible way that a huge sun-destroyer could survive inside the pyramid of giza for millions of years and no one even knowing about it.

and the story did not make much sense either.

i left the movie theater with more questions than i had going in.

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my friends want to hang out today.

i am rather tempted to just stay home though.

i want to work on some art and i will probably need a nap.

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i hope the rest of you are sleeping alright.

such a lonely day, and it's mine.

today was so long and boring.

i got some more painting done.

and i worked on some other art stuff that i have been wanting to do.

but i was so very, very lonely all day.

i almost felt like i have just wasted away on the computer when i wasn't painting.

summer has been so dull and grey since it has started.

i was supposed to start my summer class but me mum is being very difficult and won't let me.

i need to move out.

and to move out i need money.

and in order to get money i need a job.

but no one is fucking hiring because of the economy.

damn it.

damn, damn, damn.

welcome in the new.

i changed my blog around.

i hate staying the same for too long.

i love change.

hope you all like it.

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man i have been blogging a lot today.

hopefully it isn't too much. ;)

i woke up dreaming... again.

i told you i was in a dreamy mood.

my latest fashion finds found variously online.

untitled.

a random outfit i found online.

i just adore it.

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i finally found the photographers for the last post.

i felt kind of stupid that i accidentally clicked out of the window before i found the creators of such a beautiful shoot.

their names are sofia sanchez and mauro mongiello.

i bathed in dreams.

this is so incredibly romantic to me.

i love the colors.

i love the flowers.

i love the shots.

i love everything about them.

anticipation rising.

these highly reminded me of "alice in wonderland"

but maybe i have just been thinking about the story lately so i am seeing it everywhere.

it really is one of my favorite stories.

it gets your mind wandering and daydreaming.

and we all know that is a big and happy habit of mine. ;)

i took this trip through fields of rain and woods on fire.

i believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge.that myth is more potent than history.that dreams are more powerful than facts.that hope always triumphs over experience.that laughter is the only cure for grief.i believe that love is stronger than death.

-robert fulghum
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i am in a very dreamy mood.

almost like that feeling you get at halloween time where you want to pretend.

not in a fake way, but just to see what it is like to be in another dream-like, pretend world.

born free.

i am ready for a real romantic summer.

untitled.

a pierced bra.

this made me laugh.

boom boom pow

i am getting ready to start my summer class tomorrow so i can recieve my diploma.

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been looking at editorials all day and have been loving it.

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i have set myself a goal of working out every day.

i am going on a roadtrip with my friends in a couple of weeks to a place where there is a lot of hiking and water to swim like fishes in.

i am not in shape.

i mean, i am pretty skinny and all.

no way do i believe that i am fat.

because i am not.

but i am out of shape in the sense that i don't ever work out.

haha it is so hard for me to keep up with my friends who are all very athletic and work out often.

so i would like to work hard on my abs, legs, and arms to get ready to keep up with them all.

i worked so hard yesterday but it felt great.

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peace.

summer wishlist.

this is what i want in my closet this summer.

love it.

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velvet, june 09