i am jack's smirking revenge.

today is sunday: the day of rest.

obviously me mum doesn't understand that concept and still makes me get up to go to church. i completely understand that it is easter and it is like horrid or something to not go to church on this particular day but still, i would rather sleep than go.

i am so going to hell.

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when i got to church i found that my purple hair definately was out of its welcoming state. people did not seem to approve of it. not that i care what anyone thinks though. i mean, that's why i got the hair color in the first place. but it was absolutely certain that i was out of my league according to everyone in my church. only one person complimented it while meanwhile i got disapproving stares from the older ladies and men.

smile and wave girl, smile and wave.

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when i got home me mum forced me to watch this excruciatingly boring half hour segment on the life of christ. and let me tell you, not only had i seen that video like fifty times, i also just happened to already know everything it was talking about. i mean come on, does me mum really believe that i don't already learn this stuff every bloody week when she makes me endure the lessons over and over again on sundays?

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something i do not understand with me mum is that she forces religion on me as if i am going to become a satan worshipper the second i move out in a couple of months. and not just with religion does she do this. no, she also tends to be really, abnormally strict. i mean, she has always had her stupid underage guidelines for me. but lately she is becoming over the top senial. seriously if i knew she wasn't me mum i would've thought that she just escaped from the crazy place. even my sis and poppa who doesn't even live with me notice it. then again maybe me poppa is just expressing how he has always felt about me mum before they divorced. she is going insane and trying to drag me down with her. i think she is the one who needs to be on medication. wait. she already is.

i think i am dwelling in what is most commonly called "hell on earth."

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but on a lighter topic, me best mate jake came to pick me up yesterday to take me up to logan, which is about an hour away from "home sweet home." i want to go to college up there where he and me other close boy mates live and go to school. and can i just say now how much i love these boys? they are me best mates and i don't know what i would do without them. but anyways, he showed me around the campus and we checked out some apartments i might want to rent out. i rather die than have roommates. they rarely clean up after themselves and living with a bunch of girls is just drama. i hate drama. but it always seems to come to me. sigh. so i want a studio apartment or something just to myself so i can do what i want with it and only have to clean up after myself. plus i know how to actually rinse the bathtub after i bathe myself. then we went and got some icecream that was heaven let me tell you. we did a bunch of other stuff around campus (including painting easter eggs at jake's place haha) then we headed back own south to hang out with our other friends.

we went bowling and i got last place.

i suck ass at that game.

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well, i think that is all for now. i hope you all keep daydreaming and have a very happy easter!

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i got the dreamy picture from google images. seriously, that device brings up the coolest photos. you just type in the dumbest word and all these crazy images pop up.

i tend to be easily entertained. haha

the world is wrong.

new, not improved.

as you can see, i got myself a new layout for my blog. hopefully i can get used to everything on the left now. haha. me mum and sister are down in salt lake city today to look for a prom dress. i was asked to prom too by a good friend of mine but we are not going to go. i hate dances. i can't dance. and they are fu**ing expensive. i would rather spend my money on something i could use in the future. not on a dress i will only wear once and on photos that i know i will look like hell in anyways. whatever. haha instead, the guy that asked me and i are going to go down to salt lake city ourselves and hang out for the day down there. much like something i would rather do than go to a dance that i know will be a disapointment. but anyways.

i finally finished my friend's commision she had for me. she wanted me to paint two faeries to hang up in her daughter's bedroom. i took quite awhile due to my demanding schoolwork. plus it was my first real commision and i was extremely nervous that she wouldn't like them. but she seemed to like them quite a lot and her daughter even named the faeries "anne" and "flowery". the daughter is five years old. haha i am so relieved that the liked them, plus my friend payed me fifty dollars for the two eight by eleven pieces so not bad in my book.

oh my, i have not eaten much since yesterday afternoon and it is now 1:15 PM here in dismal utah. guess what i had for breakfast? saltine crackers. yes, completely nourishing and filling... i was being sarcastic. haha i have nothing in the house to eat. i crave a frapaccino right now. i know that isn't exactly "healthy" either but it sure is filling.

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hey check out this song i am listening to right now. it is very pretty:

imogen heap by not now but soon

sorry i am rambling so much right now. i am so bored and want to get out of the house! the weather is finally warming up a bit and i want to experience it before it goes away!

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i think i found the picture from the drifter and the gypsy blog.

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keep daydreaming!

am i apart of you?

i found this very deep and well thought quote on http://newbornhippy.blogspot.com/

i love it.

"You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it."

i think it would be such an interesting thing to know that you were a meaningful and adored person in another's life. i hope i am to someone. someone out in the world. and i don't even mind not knwing who it is. i just lust for the fact that i am. somewhere.

ok i'm just going to be honest with you.

the most ten honest things about me are:

1. i am an artist. not just because i can draw or paint. but because i am creative and i think. i strive to be original and thrive on new experiences and ideas.

2. i am stubborn. very stubborn. i have never in my life gone for someone else's ideas or opinions just to fit in. i have my own thoughts so i don't need your help with defining them. being stubborn gets me teased a lot by my guy friends. ;)

3. i am a city girl. i do not enjoy the country very much. every-now-and-then i can go to the country-side and enjoy the fresh air. but i hate the smell of cows and other farm animals. not only that, but rarely anything happens in the farm lands. everything is so quiet. which brings me to number four.

4. i need noise in my life. i need action. i need adventure. i have to constantly be listening to music or i go crazy from the silence. something has to be going on around me or i get bored.

5. although people would never guess it from me, i am a romantic. i love fairytales, not disney fairytales, but real stories like Romeo and Juliet and A Midsummer Night's Dream. i love flowing dresses, lace, photography of women in dreamy settings, poetry, and real love and calming music.

6. i am fasinated by the female body. no, i am not interested in women in a love way. i am not a purvert. i just think we are beautiful creatures. women are such magical beings that deserve to be recognized so. i suppose that is why i tend to only draw women.

7. i want to go to italy one day and hope to live in seattle, washington after i graduate highschool in less then two months. i have always adored italy. i used to live in washington since i was born until i was five. then i moved to dull and unchanging utah for my poppa's work purposes. but i still visit it often and love it so much.

8. in truth, i had severe depression since i was very small until i reached the age of seventeen. i had a lot of family problems that caused me to have a very sad childhood. most people wish they could go back, i rather die.

9. i believe in these two sayings more than any others:

regrets are mistakes you don't learn from

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forgiveness means you've given up the hope that the past will be different

i don't know who said those because i have used them in my life for years and have forgotten the quoters.

10. it has taken my whole life, but i am finally appreciating life and accept myself for who i truely am inside.

november me.

so i took a quiz and found out a little bit about myself, according to my birthday month. i found the quiz on facebook so you can find it there. here are the results:

"Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keeps secrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable."

i must say i was very impressed by my outcome because this is exactly like me. :)

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photo found on google images.

tagged!

picture found on http://thedrifterandthegypsy.blogspot.com/

1. Respond and rework: Answer the questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own invention, add one more question of your own.

2. Tag other un-tagged people.


What's your current obsession?piano music and fairytales

What are you wearing today?sweat pants and a baggy T

What are you looking forward to?i can not wait to move out

What would you like to learn to do?i wish i could play the guitar or piano. and i would like to learn to make my own paper for my art.

What did you have for dinner?i didn't eat yesterday.

What was the last thing you bought?some art supplies i believe from my art teacher.

What are you listening to right now?the drifter and the gypsy's blog piano music.

What is your favorite weather?when it's summer and warm and it starts to rain really quietly.

What is on your bedside table?picture after picture stacked up, some books, and art supplies.

What's your style?i don't really have a certain style. my style is alexandra. i wear what i want.

Which actor/actress do you think is similar to you?well i have been told i look like certain celebs but i think the one actress that is really similar to me is kristen stewart. we don't look alike but our personalities are really similar. all the characters she has played in movies are a lot like me.

What is your most challenging goal right now?i am striving to get my ap art portfolio together.

If you could go back in time to meet anyone in history, who would you meet?cleopatra, anne frank, or shakespeare

What is a fashion style you can't stand?hollister, aeropostale, when girls poof their hair up to the sky, when guys let their pants hang to their ankles, big long chain necklaces that gangsters wear, and yeah.

Favorite vacation spot?seattle or cali

Name the things you cannot live without:my art, my eyes, my hands, my thoughts, my hearing, mystery, romance, fairytales, wonder.

What would you like to get rid of?highschool and it's unnecissary drama and rudeness.

If you could go anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?italy and seattle

What language do you want to learn?french and italian. they are so romantic.

What countries have you visited?the usa and canada.

What are some of the things you like about where you live?.... my friends are nearby.. that's about it.

What's you favorite quality about yourself?um.... i like that i actually think about things. things that no one else really ponders about. i like that i can get myself out of this world and i can create my own. a place where i can really be myself. that world mostly transforms itself into my art.

What is your favorite quote/saying? regrets are mistakes we don't learn from

Say one random fact about yourself:i love scaring people. :)

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and i would like to tag Morning Glory Box. :) http://morningglorybox.blogspot.com/

just musing.

here are my latest interests. i found all of the randomly on google images. i think a few of them are from deviantart but i still discovered them on google. i had nothing to do last night so i just searched for photos that i liked. so here are some of them. i got a bunch more too. but enjoy these!

welcome to my life.

i finally did it! i finally got my hair cut and colored! i thought me mum would kill me for getting purple but she actually let it go pretty quick. i am definately not a good photographer so these pics are the best i could do.

this weekend has been so boring and unexhilerating. me mum doesn't let me do anything on this weekend of the year because it is some big religious thing that she believes i need my full attention provided towards so that's why i haven't posted much. as soon as it's over i have a lot to discuss though!

i better get going before i get in trouble. grr.

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keep daydreaming and hopefully your weekend is more exciting than mine!

boring my butt off.

i sluffed sociology today. why? because it is the dumbest class ever. this is like my 50th time sluffing it too. so i drove home (not before buying some flavored blasted goldfish though) and am now sitting listening to music. alanis morisette at the moment. sorry this is such a dumb and short entry but i got nothing on me right now. please forgive me and keep daydreaming.

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http://www.luckyandtrouble.blogspot.com/

that is where i found the picture.

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my hell i want a frapaccino....

the fury of the purple.

alright ladies and gentler ones, i have finally gotten my hair cut and colored. i just got it done last night so no pictures yet! but don't worry, i will get some up as soon as possible.

now, being the very unfortunate young woman that i am, i still live with me mum (don't be so disapointed, i still got 2 months til i graduate highschool!) so bright crazy-ass colors are totally out of the question. but before you feel too sorry for me, when i went and got my hair done, i had the wonderful hair-dresser put a few purple streaks in it. i told her me mum could shove it. ;) i mean after all, it wasn't my whole hair i was dying purple was it? no. so i totally got away with it. along with some purple on either side, i got a dark brown-ish auburn color on top then black underneath it all (and all of a sudden "no doubt" 's music pops into my head). oh and the above picture with kristen stewart is pretty much what i look like only the girl does not have my rad purple and my auburn is a little darker. now until i can get my own photos up, i decided to let you all take a glance at other "purple-haired" looks that i randomly found on photobucket. enjoy!

this one is actually more pink with a blue streak but who cares? i like it ok?

this is an example of what me mum would not let me do:

how could i resist putting up a picture of mila in ultraviolet.... i couldn't. :)

okay so the overly-gifted gal that did my hair (dawn) just did her own hair similar to this. only instead of brown all over, it was black underneath and white on top. it was so awesome. she did it herself (with the help of her bf) and once did it with orange, turquoise, and pink.

i love this one. i have always loved the blond with dark on the bottom. i doubt i could ever pull it off however, so i have never done it. i look odd with blonde hair.

gawl my hair is so thin, i have such jealousy for those who can poof their hair to the sky.

this one is pretty much my fav of the bunch.

so hopefully i can get my own face and hair up here soon. just depends on my camera which is acting up again. sigh

i also gotta go get ready for school and can i just say that i can not wait to be in college? i hate highschool and its small-minded, cell-phone obssessed, high drama students that attend it. i hate the cliques and the unnessasary rudeness. i am not trying to be um "self rightious" when i say that i am mature and they are not. is that too evil to admit? seriously though, i can not have one single passionate, intellectual, deep-minded conversation with anyone in my whole school, or with anyone my age and under for that matter. the girls only talk about boys and gossip.... and the latest "gossip girl" episode. the "boys" only talk about their muscles and what girls they "did" last weekend. believe you me, my generation is a dying breed. i feel like self mutalating myself out of frustration and impatience to live my own life in the real world. (don't worry i won't though) i need a change, my hair was not enough. i need to go.... go where "no one i know will find me" (that was from "nick and norah" if you didn't recognize it)

well i really should get going. i am going to be late, again. not that i need to take a class about adults anyways seeing as i already feel more like one then the rest of my class. (i have "adult roles" first period haha)

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well peace out and sorry about my venting, but isn't that what blogs are for? :)

the siren song.

it is nearly the start of a new month and you know what that means? a new photospread from LA2day! this time they went a whole new route from the "park life" from the beginning of march and chose to dive into the sea to discover the beauty of women in its depths. Sparkly jewels, colorful ribbons, and bright eyeshadows compelled the photos with intriguing zeal. along with the spread there came a little poem by jeremy tarr. enjoy!

Far away from these maudlin shores

Through amber waves and misty moors

In wildest seas where serpents do slither

Beckons mermaids to sailors a coy come hither.
I followed their cries through seven great oceans

Their lilting sweet songs steering my devotion

Whilst I battled Neptune's waves and crazed cyclones

And fought off eager offers from Hades' Charon.

With eyes like pearls from oyster's fresh mouths

And scales and gills that wriggled down south,

With cheeks rouge in purples and ambers and plums

My brain when I saw them went curiously numb.
Awake I stirred to the sight of chaste sprites

And I swam with them all through water's black night.

Blonde and auburn curls danced in God's blue drink

My lust carried me forth, my brain ceased to think.

They cautioned me to flee whilst time still made sense

And fight off the sleep that thrives at love's expense.

But warnings and heeds I cast down to rocks

And chased but instead their dancing nymph locks.
They asked me to marry and be their good groom

And to live on the sea-floor in my watery tomb

To an alter they took me as a king to his crowning

And as my gasp came to close, I realized I was drowning.

models: katie casey, molly collins, jeneleen floyd, rachel kolar
photography by maximilla lukacs

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if you want to check out the whole thing along with the rest of the amazing site, go to:

http://www.la2day.com/fashion/photo_spread_the_siren_song

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well i ought to go do some homework. i got so much art to do! and tomorrow i am going to a few art galleries and then getting my hair cut, finally! :)

keep daydreaming!

currently...

What is your current obsession? brownies, frapaccinos, Nylon, working out, perfume, daydreaming, and roadtrips
What do you see outside your window? a big long road and a ginormous house across that road
If you could have any super power what would it be? well at the moment i think it would be cool to breathe underwater
What is your favorite color? red, purple, and black
Who was the last person you hugged? carol at church (what a sweet heart)
Which animal would you be? a wolf
What’s for dinner? chicken pasta with cream sauce (that's what me mum is making right now)What was the last thing you bought? a sobe for my friend
What are you listening to right now? stupid rush limba (me mum loves him)
What is your favourite weather? i love it when it rains during the summer so the raindrops are warm
What’s on your beside table? art, pencils, colored pencils, photos from art magazines, my friends phone numbers, and a hummer model (haha me poppa got it for me on my 16th bday)
If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you want it to be? seattle or italy
What is your favorite children's book? where the wild things are, and osme other ones i can't think of right now
A book you're currently reading? this one about this girl.. haha yeah i forgot the name of it but it is good
What would you like to have in your hands right now? some art mags like Frankie or Nylon
What is your favorite tea flavor? um, i don't like tea, even herbal tea. but if i had to choose it would be this berry kind i think
What is your favorite article of clothing: anything comfortable and interesting lol
What would you like to get rid of? my sister (lol)
If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? italy .. sigh
What did you want to become as a child? i really wanted to be a secret agent and i still do ;)
What posters/pictures do you have on your bedroom wall? mostly photography that i use as inspiration for my art along with an avril lavigne picture, some pieces of art from a couple of my fav artists, and some of my own art from when i was younger
What is your plan for tomorrow? go to school and then hopefully do something fun and exciting